26 January 2005
I'm still here
Despite all the disagreements and clashes in work, I still remain as one the top performer in my department.Maybe it's all thanks to my perfectionist style and philosophies.
But my health is starting to show its negative side. I must say that I have handle the stress in this work environment well. Afterall, I have been here for three years. Accompanying me are my colleagues who suffer from all sort of illness, I vowed not to be like them. But it's hard. Because, there is also a subconscious type of stress which you will never thought of. In the end, you still down with the dreaded disease. Last year was a bad year for me. Some of my older colleagues remarked that what goes around, comes around. The old ones gone and it won't be long, the young ones will. One day I will be like them, sick and lifeless.
It's a different ball game now. Sometimes, it is not always related to heavy workload, it's the people you work with, who create tons of problem for you. And when you get all worked up just because of one person who does stupid things, your blood pressure increased. It's is always people, believe me, that causes difficulties more than any other.
Thank God I manage to survive all these years. And I just want to say something, to those who always look at me as a superwoman. For God sake, I am only human and alive, don't shorten my life! I hope I can manage to be as impartial as always. Thanks to all those colleagues who believe and trust in me. And for those who disses me and wish me dead, I will still continue fighting and will not cave in.
6:28 p.m. 
by ichigo