18 April 2005

Self reflection

I am recently quite tired of the things I do or did. Or used to do. Felt like my life gone haywire again and wretched me don't know what is wrong. Part of me decided that I have enough and trying to sought something different. A different future, a different dream. Yet, I am quite happy as to what I have right now.

The problem always lies with me. I don't have a penchant to stay long in the things I'm interested with. I am constantly seeking for changes in my life so that I can experience life more vibrantly. Sad to say alot of people just love a simple life, the back to basic type. And they can't hold long to catch up with my zest in life. Either they lagged or I separate myself (in an excuse maybe), that is why friendship in my dictionary is just a mere temporary acquaintance.

And right now I'm kind of bored with what I'm doing. I can't help but wish for some thing new to happen in my life. And in this 'thinking time', I feel like I have become the sort that 'greed-for-more-despite-of-what-I-have-now' type of person. Can't help but think that if someday my life crashed again and left me with nothing, will I be more content with the basic than to keep on searching for something else?

1:19 p.m. by ichigo